Thursday, June 16, 2005
not at all happy
ok...hols is drawing to an end....which snaps me rather mercilessly back to reality....that i am late in homework and i am very stressed...which probably means that i am gonna need to go see a shrink vv soon...well...i haf got to sae...the holidaes was a godsent..i mean...perfect time for me to juz...relax and do wadeva i want....but now....it seems i am pulled back into the world of competition, academics, stress, unhappiness and insanity. which is totally unwelcome...to top it up, no bright sides....so..it is purely negativity...which is rather impossible..but there u haf it....i think i need time to quickly get over with the fact that i am stuck with a new grp, not the best...but hu am i to complain...to me, most of the class is unhappy. people begin to bond with each other if they are sitting together on the same table for more than 3 months. it is alwaes excruciatingly painful to face such changes. to haf to adapt to completely different people...i seriously dun lyk this....i dun agree to wad the teachers hope to accomplish by doing this. to get to know everybody. to work with a lot of people. no matter how "important" it is supposed to be. call me conservative, narrow-minded...blahblah...i dun care...everyone has the right to voice out their opinion. if people are not happy with it, it is juz too bad for them coz i haf the right to freedom of speech....so get over it...the perfect grp has one last project together before parting ways....but..i am not exactly looking forward to it..sry peeps...but it is juz rather hard for me to adapt to diff ppl with an important thing holding us together...i juz cant breakaway...sometimes i think that the lyrics of that song is rather true...but others...i think it is impossible...to take a risk, take a chance, make a change, and breakaway....a true bundle of contradictions i am....am i haf a feeling that is going to cost me.
blogged @ Thursday, June 16, 2005
