i feel veryvery...crestfallen. honestly, i have no idea why. school just seems...pointless. i am not even sure what the hell is going on around there anymore. and i feel that i do not belong. sick and tired of being annoyed, irritated, grumpy. i mean it. my life is just a routine. u go to school and do work and trudge through life with bare necessities. everything else just slides away. any hints of positive emotion, every ounce of life. i dun look forward to anything now. nothing to look forward to. seriously, i hardly remember feeling truly happy. everything is so superficial; hypocritical. i dun even see the point of blogging anymore...