fire: Hot, Destructive, Dangerous

rain: water, gloomy, depressing

fire and water. they are literally and figuratively such opposites but somehow, they manage to mingle themselves into a single entity. i do wonder sometimes how life can be so full of contradictions. it is difficult to put down in words how humans are capable of feeling such contradictions. like you can be looking forward to something, yet somehow dreading it. or you can be like a blazing inferno but simltaneously, you are spiralling down a whirlpool.

to tell you the truth, i am getting rather sick and tired of burning and drowning at the same time. seriously, it doesnt even lie within the scope of logic. that aside, i am sick and tired of feeling either fire or/and water. for the past few years, majority of the time is has been like walking on glowing ambers. the intense heat eating away at my soul. its either that, or i am hiding in some dark covert aquamarine pool drowning in the salty solution. it has been a really long time since i felt the spray of the sea, the sun gently caressing my skin, the cool dry breeze running through my locks or smell the sweet mellow fragrance of lavender.

what has changed? i think that i would never find an answer to that question. or maybe i already know the answer, but didnt think of it as the answer. hang on. does that even make sense? hmmmmm i guess not. but hey, its hard to put it down in words. and they aren't making it any easier...............