its one in the morning of yet another monday. the exams are officially a week away. ONE week AWAY. everyone around me is buried in books and notes or getting lost in cyberspace, absorbing every bit and byte of note possible. and as people do that, i feel immense pressure coming down from me at all sides. the urge to win people who did better than me, the urge to improve, the urge to maintain my position from people who did worse than me in the past. it is almost too much to bear. but i have learnt that i need to relax. i really do. and i also really need to get help. people all around me has got a rather good headstart. they had the first 2 weeks of school to study. my first 2 weeks were plain old projects. no time for revision at all. well, now that the projects are over, i WILL do my BEST to catch up with everyone and perhaps even overtake some people who started studying since the holidays. i am not saying that i will coz there is a high possibility that i will not be able to. but u cant blame a guy for trying. besides, i have a lot to lose. A LOT. and i REFUSE to lose. I REFUSE! hey, they said that peer pressure is REALLY bad. i have to agree. and after watching high school musical (a new infatuation), about 8 to 9 times in a few days, the idea of breaking free has really sunk in deep. but the problem is, the competitiveness in me has much deeper roots. i just cannot break free from competition. i just cannot ignore the danger that others may pose to my position. and i DO realize that this post sounds really scary to some people and hey, take it as a motivation. because from now on, its full steam ahead. BRING IT ON!!!!!!!!!