i have no idea i feel...well...so bad lately. just last night i was having this warped case of inferiority complex. reason? its way too dumb to be told anywhere where more than 2 people have access to. anyway, to put it vaguely, i was comparing myself with someone who is obviously out of almost everybody's league. anyway, the green monster of jealous just started to pop out... and at the same time, i totally admire him. yes. mixed feelings. the story of my life. and i think the only one who took me seriously is well...you know who you are. so thank you. =) . but nevertheless, i am still jealous. and sad. why isit that i carn be as good. i never am... yes.

anyway, i forced myself asleep and woke up feeling slightly better. then i went for swimming. which was wonderful coz it ends so fast (if you dunnid to wait for anyone...) anyway, intermediate class is great. hahaha. MUCH better than beginners. coz beginners take SO long to end. anyway, we just did 50 quarter laps. i.e. half a breadth. hahaha. totally lurve swimming. slightly tired after that though. anyway, i was the first to get out the pool, but one of the last to leave the swimming complex. why? because i promised to help miaomiao to look after her tabby. but damn they took LONG. ok. after that, we all rushed back to skl coz we din want to be late for ms yong's lesson. she fines ppl. *grrrr* and from econs onwards i felt damn freaking depressed once again coz i totally suck at it. but well, tried not to influence others. so yes. all the way till bio. oh yah. did i mention that those people just makes me feel "so much better". its wonderful for anyone can be so "tact-deficit". really wanted to tell them to screw off ...... but i din. anyway, just wanted to rush home after skl and bathe and then i started to listen to my songs...but fell asleep. so the second before i drifted off to dream land i managed to close my media player AND shut the lid of my tabby AND put it aside. amazing. haha.

oh yes, just so you know is one of my new addictions, along with many other songs by jesse mccartney.