Just so you know is blasting in my ears once again. he is positively addictive. well. i shall NOT rant on about inferiority complexes and my obsession just yet.
the main point of this post is well, to rant about HOMEWORK. and SCHOOL. 2 major banes of my life at this point in time
yes. i just totally hate hate hate hate hate doing that STUPID PI. i have NO idea what to do with it actually. i mean...i dunno how she wants me to CHANGE it. yes. i am in need of inspiration and ideas. HELP. but thats about it for PW. now. on to economics. i absolutely suck and doing the stuff. totally dunno how to plan the second part of the essay and ALSO, dunno how to do data response. ARGH. i think i am gonna do so badly in econs can!!!! yes. woonyee....i think you will get ur wish..terence will get last in class for econs. easy as pie to fail for moi. yay. "gd job terence" !!!!!! i hate this!!!!!!!!!!!!! seriously hate this. and i am still awake at this sorta unholy hour doing those STUPID homework. i.e PI, econs essay plan and data response. all of which are half completed. wtf. i am so freaking deproving. the thing is...i am beginning to not care anymore. and the very act of typing it out makes it clearer to me. and at the same time, it has also made clear the fact that i cannot let that happen. i refuse to let it happen. it CANNOT HAPPEN. i am so freaking frustrated with myself nowadays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just DONT GET IT. ew. stupidity is stupid. yes. i hate stupidity damn it!
seriously, whatever i typed out above just sounded like some random crap that i came up with that hardly makes any sense at all...
and once again i am just overwhelmed at all the changes that are going on. it is just weird how they can be the same, yet uncomfortably different. isit just me? maybe not. i dun think so... i mean, some changes are really rather obvious. but the thing is...are they really changing? again i have to say that i am starting to not make sense anymore. but well...in my own warped way i still understand what i am typing.
GOSH...my thoughts are so scattered now. i mean...the whole post is like..incoherent. yes. when terence starts to type random crap here and there you know my brain is not functioning properly. or at least...there is just too many things to think about and its just coming out in random spurts. but then again...my brain has been functioning like this for some time now...esp during GP, econs and PW. but i have to be happy with the fact that it is still functional in other lessons. yes. i still get other subjects. GOSH. even THIS sounds scattered. well..wadeva.
oh my goodness...why is it that i will never compare to him. well..because he is HIM. but then again...so what? that doesnt mean i carn compare to make my own life miserable right? its still amazes me how i can admire and feel inferior to him at the same time. he is my take on perfection. perfect. perfection...isnt that synonymous with impossible? but still, everyone wants it. me, now more than ever. brainsandtalent...