its 1.50am. because you live just started to play in my ears.. but now i know what i didnt know.. because you live...and breathe... and the song goes on...

still awake. and a little sick.. in various aspects of the word... literally.. and also in reference to the fact that i am currently so damn sick of school. gave up on doing econs essay plan after doing part a and coming to the conclusion that i wrote grossly out of point. :( .

i feel depressed too... ironic isnt it.. while his world has everything he needs to survive... i'm practially dying. well.. now its best day of my life... haha.. man.. thats in stark contrast with MY life...

oh yes... i have lost the ability to blog coherently.. i cannot make any sense out of what i just typed above. well thats sad... another thing i lost...

haiz... i think this is the perfect oppurtunity to use the quote "i know not why i am so sad"... the first line of merchant of venice... amazing how i still manage to remember this particular quote when i forgot all the other quotes which are MUCH more significant.. and powerful. maybe its coz i heard it loads of times.. consecutively.. when the crazy people are all at junping's house rehearsing for our own version of merchant of venice act 1 ? or maybe its because... junping, playing antonio... always says that... during rehearsals.. when her expression is so comical.. and she is laughing throughout the whole line.. hahaha... how contradictory.. but i digress...

its now 2.01am.. still typing this blog post... well.. as you probably can tell by now, i have no idea what to blog about.. just randomly typing in whatever that i am thinking of at the moment. but well.. there was something that prompted me to blog in the first place.. and that reason is coz i am gloomy and have absolutely no idea why. but i think i made that rather clear... hahaha.. also made clear the fact that i'm deranged.

well.. i really shouldnt be wallowing in self pity... on the bright side, school later on is gonna be relatively short and painless... hopefully i can go home early... i need to isolate myself and pull myself together...

now.. the million dollar question... should i go watch a movie NOW??? *grins**hot songs blasting in my ears* its 2.14am.

just so you know, this feeling's taking control of me. and i cant help it. i wont sit around, i cant let him win now. though you should know i tried my best to let go of you. but i dont want to. just gotta say it all before i go. just so you know...