ok..... i know its been a helluva long time since i last posted and this blog is practically stagnant. so. TIME to freshen it up with a new post! not that this is gonna be a happy post. let's see, the last time i blogged it was what.... 6 febuary? that is before CNY right? oh wells.... i shant blog about CNY. since there isnt much to blog about.. its not like i got any windfalls in the form of red packets or anything interesting happened..... except that on saturday, i went out with my besties and had dinner with fabian who just booked out for the first time from hell. and yes. the more i hear about it the more i KNOW (not think) that army is a completely FUC*ED UP place. HONESTLY. well, i'll just have to pull through it wont i. but one thing i'll make damn freaking sure of is that i'll make sure to read up on my the singapore statutes and fling it at them on my last day before the BMT period ends. oh yeah... threaten to sue those effing sons of bitches who are losers and deserve to be treated like dirt. (notice i didnt say shit because shit is still a super useful fertiliser and these gits are not even worthy of that.) and recently met up with fabian AGAIN just a few days ago on a saturday..... and yes. whatever he says just adds to how effed up the stupid thing is. talk about fallacies in arguements. these people sure provide some brilliant examples.

now i'm sure that i can go on and on about how i absolutely abhor NS and everything to do with it but i'd rather not. but i'll bitch about something similar. i.e: NAPHA mock. well, today, we did standing broad jump and..... pull ups. these are the 2 items that i can NEVER pass. i dunno WHY. i just CANT. that's THAT. its not like as if i'm not freakign TRYING. and that is exactly what that pisses me off. that i try but there aint no results. its frustrating and i got extremely upset and pissed at myself. yes. some people will never understand............. sighs...... yeah... i think most people think that terence doesnt give a shit. well, i cant force them to change how they think..... sometimes, i just think.... why bother...... try as i might i just cant get it. then i'll start thinking...... train the muscles and not go in army early or academics. that's a no brainer for me. academics will trump the other anytime, anywhere. and naturally i present myself with a choice only when i know that i can only have one or the other. or none. i dunno... sighs. maybe i can try for both. sighs... i'm so tired of this.

lets hope something good will happen to me tomorrow......... sighs. the hope for a better tomorrow....