its been ages and ages and AGES since i posted the last post. and apparently, i was spot on about my stress levels. one of the reasons why the hell i died for such a long time is cuz of the avalanche of work and project and whatever other shit that school threw at me. yup. rushed out powerpoints, tutorials, studied for biology test... math test... started some drama... breakdown... presentation... poster rush... more work... and the list goes on filled with activities and work work work. hmm... school is draining. absolutely draining me... physcially mentally psychologically emotionally... completely.

once again, i am "proud" to say that my biological clock has gone wacko and is so screwed up its.... normal. oh yeah. i guess some people who knows me will be thinking right now... that my sleeping time has finally been pushed to the 5am-6am range. dead wrong people. on the contrary, i sleep at 7 - 9pm now. sooo.... u may be asking.. what the hell is wrong with that? just a little early... well........ the thing is, i am not exactly completely conscious of the fact that i slept. i can be doing work, reading notes at one moment. and the next thing i know, the house is dark and absolutely quiet and there are no sounds from the streets below. it got so bad that one time when i was having a nap, i slept from 3pm and woke up at 7... pm. but when i woke up and saw the analog clock, i was like... holy crap! i'm LATE FOR SCHOOL!!! then my mom told me to get ready for dinner.. and i was stunned.. dinner? what dinner? isnt it breakfast! its friday! but no. its thursday evening. it gets scary. when you wake up and realize you dont know what time it is. or worse... when you dont know that you slept in the first place. this is bad........

but the point is.. there are seriously too many things happening in my life right now. urgh... struggling desperately to hold on to life as it rockets past me. i dont even get a chance to wave and say hello to all those moments... the good and the bad ones.... as the pass by. in fact... i dont even have the chance to blog about things that i wanted to blog about.. lol... well.... that's not a good thing... afterall, you must remember the bad memories in order to appreciate the good ones. right?

lol... some drama may be in my life... drama which i totally do NOT have the time and energy to deal with.... that's not desirable... but hey. i will always make time for some.. REAL drama in my Tv programs... newest craze? Gossip Girl. xian jun told me to watch it. lol. amazing show. LOVE the bitchiness and drama. its absolutely fabulous. Upper East Siders. wooooah. Manhattan's elite. ha. i'm having a love hate relationship with the characters. LOVE them.. but jealous as hell. here i am in glorious sunny dot slaving away for that TINY glimmer of hope that i'll go to US to study... and there they are.. decked out in dolce, armani... going to masked balls... attending major social events when they are not in school.. and of course... constantly scheming and bitching.... everyone sleeping with everyone else... scandals run amok. OMG. oh... and did i mention their effing PHONES. double-u-tee-eff that's the thing that REALLY gets me. i NEED a Sidekick... or an iPhone... lol. dun mind either. URGHhhhhhh this is sooo frustrating. ooooooooooooooooh yes. HOW can i EVER forget....... this is the ULTIMATE SHIT. here i am praying my heart out to just get into universities like.... uni of pennsylvania, UCSF... michigan state.... not even THINKING about touching the Ivy League.... and THERE they are.... CHOOSING which Ivy to go to. attending and hosting Ivy mixers.... networking with those important representatives. what on earth.......

anyways... let me talk about college clean up which was yesterday.. haha. it was hilarious. well.. first we had mazarin showcase which is.. meehhhh..... but then after that was clean up.. and i think it was the funnest cleanup i ever did.. lol.. i brought my tablet for the showcase and basically.. we were blasting music which cleaning.. hahaha..... funnn... and cleaning with those crazy people is fun too.. haha... really fun. but tiring.. duh. haha.... anyways........ dear mr lim came at abt 4 and told us that the reception for mazarin people is open and we can go get food... soooo..... terence being nice went down to get food for everyone. and i expected to have one of those lovely samosas and curry puffs which i saw....... but......... when i got there.. all i say was........ lettuce that was used as garnishing, papaya, EMPTY PLATES and dry sandwiches. i was like.... what the F**K. and all around there i see NON mazarin people lapping up curry puffs, CHICKEN DRUMLETS... etcetc. hmm.... what the eff man....... i thought it just STARTED? what the hell did everyone just STARVE themselves and once those aluminium covers were open they CLEANED the plates like a pack of hungry DOGS? i was seriously turned off.... and soo.. i took one of those aluminium covers.. and emptied all the sandwiches left. every single one. and then.. i took a cup of tea which was UBER sweet... and went up. what the hell...... i could have gotten BETTER food.. and like.... what..... more than a quarter of my class is in mazarin? screw all those shameless thick skinned food deprived animals man....

ok. moving on to my day today. went to tuition... then went out with fabian and xue hu to orchard to get a housewarming gift for xian jun. wont disclose what we got... but......... let's talk about what happened on the way. haha. when fabian was paying for his shoes.... the cashier gave us a couple of coffee capsules to go to Nexpressor for a sample. oh my word. i've been SO SO intrigued by that shop its ridiculous.... coz the booth looks so god damn chic and classy. sooo... we went and tried it out. fabian didnt really like his coffee so i drank his instead.. lol.. mine was decaf but his wasnt. sooo... i dunno how i'm gonna sleep tonight. anyway... so what exactly is so special about this shop? it looks freaking expensive. it IS freaking expensive. one capsule costing 90 cents makes only one cup. one SHOT. tiny cup. well.. maybe cuz i wanted the expresso... lol.. but still. wow. its REALLLLLLYYYY cool though. lol.. just pop the capsule in and press a button. instant coffee.. well not that instant... it tastes HELL a lot better. that coming from a person who prefers tea. that's something. ha. yes. its really cool. the service is great too. hahahahaha... that's what you get for expensive places. ahhhhh welllll.....

soooo... after getting the present and tricking the staff to wrap it for us, we went back to cine to eat. lol.. and it was nine-thirty buy then. STARVING. haha.. of course, it is no surprise that terence practically emptied the cheese powder. ha. i love hanging out with my besties..... its such a fun great fun to just walk around... talking about everything and anything... hahahahaha.... ooooh wells.. it was late by the time we finished dinner.... so we just loitered arnd heerens for about 5 minutes.... before they waited for 36 with me.. haha.... we were taking photos and when fabian wanted to bluetooth the pic to me.. the bus arrived!!!!! HAHAHAHA... it was hilarious.... fabian was like following me as i board the bus to keep the connection... and i was like leaning against the window while he is right outside to keep the connection.. LOL.. but of course it was too short a time to transfer... ahahahhahahaa...... gotta admit.. it was pretty FUN! hahahaha... ooook... i'm done posting now. tired of typing all that crap down. let me end off with that wonderful gossip girl line...

you know you love me.. XOXO GossipGirl.