there is something wrong with me.

i just came back from the movies. lol. yes i know its 1.33am right now. just watched chronicles of narnia: prince caspian. with fabian and ian of course. it is a great night. but i dunno why... i'm feeling like this again. yup. the depression/emo mood. but let me say this first. no. i am not suicidal. but its weird. i just feel extremely..... unlike myself.

dont get me wrong... there is absolutely nothing that went wrong with my day today. it was a great day... tuition was more than bearable... dinner with my cousin at muthu's curry (where we feasted like kings and queens... or cows...) was delicious. and naturally... the movie... was beyond awesome. (duh. its disney.) so i have no idea why i'm like that right now. though i guess this is kinda a good time to be feeling like that. i mean, the timing is perfect. at 1.40am in the morning, the world is silent. its so silent, its deafening. what do i mean by that exactly... well, ever been somewhere so quiet, there seems to be that ultrasound frequency ringing in ur ears? its that quiet. that and the sound of my old keyboard tapping away.... and the annoying fan of course.

as always, i manage to digress. i dunno. what on earth is happening??????

is it that again? i dont think so. but what else? all i feel like doing is disappearing. just go away on my own. so i can not be alone. at least in my mind. crazy? you bet. i'm so moody right now i cant even bring myself to blog about how awesome the movie is and spill spoilers all over my blog.

ok. now i dont even know what to type anymore. in fact, i dont know exactly what i've been typing for the last 10 minutes. am i even making any sense? coz i seriously dont understand what i am typing about. and it feels like i just repeated myself.

what the hell is wrong with me??? (maybe i know the answer to that. just maybe.) this. is. not. normal...