la la la la la. the freaking hellish 'A' levels are O-V-E-R!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha. yes! oh my god now i can concentrate on more important things in life like university applications and SATs. urgh! soooo many things to do! but i'm going to HK soon! yay! that'll be great for sure. oh yes. i need to remind myself to set an appointment with the immigration.

ANYWAYS, i can FINALLY HAVOC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha... and havoc i did.... this morning.... muahahahahahahaha. it was completely impromptu, out of character and i cant believe i did that even though i spent the last week telling everyone NO... lol. well, i guess a part of me just wants to know what it's like. so what happened was we met at night and went to timbre which was packed. so we migrated up the singapore river. and finally we migrated somewhere else. i think xianjun is right and of course, i ALWAYS thought so myself... it's def not a good lifestyle... it's all good fun... but it uses way too much resources... financial and temporal not to mention physical. lol. nevertheless, it was a DAMN tiring and exciting day yesterday. it would be better IF............... but NEVERMIND. i mean afterall it's, well, it's taboo.

So, i spent the night at xianjun's place. we were talking about all that crap we did that day... and about his HK trip which he is leaving for in...... an hour or so. and boy did i sleep SOUNDLY. lol. i woke up at.. close to 1pm... and went to get a shower... and... his parents bought lunch which was really good. and then we just hung out and watched shows while waiting for the freaking rain to STOP so i can get my ass home. so in the end, i reached home and apparently caught my mom by surprise by turning up so there was no freaking dinner and i had to cook instant noodles for dinner. how fancy. lol. and now i'm hungry again! urgh i'm becoming a total pig. lol. this is not gooooddd!!!!!!

urgh. i really should be sleeping at normal hours now. freaking hell the A levels totally freaked up my sleeping patterns. ok. actually... SCHOOL freaked that up. and speaking of school, i need to get back there to find people on monday. shit. teachers recommendations and secondary school records. oh... and apparently i got merit bursary. from prelims? lol. i thought i screwed that shit up BADLY.

sighs, most of my besties are outta the country. ian is getting frozen in freaking europe, xianjun is frolicking around in HK in a few hours... thank god there's still FABIAN! haha. i need to hang out with him... since he DITCHED us yesterday... lol... nevermind.... it's OK! seriously. maybe i'll call him (you) later or sumthing. gosh i'm totally spending too much money these days it's not even funny. and by the time all my friends come back, they either 1) have to go into the FUCKING ARMY or 2) i am leaving for HK. and when I come back.... it's SAT TIME and of course, finally enlisting... i cant believe it. it's so so so surreal. the thing i've been dreading ever since i was 10 years old is finally here. sighs. fuck it.

- wishing to stare into those dark brown eyes, i find peace in a smile.