wow. i just finished typing this post and then i made a mistake and everything for deleted. what the... anyways, i'll try to retype whatever i can. by the way, i've been trying to finish this post in days. and now i'm currently less than an hour away from booking IN again... gosh..

i'm finally back! obviously... the past 2 weeks have been without a doubt the longest weeks of my entire life. there is something very unnatural about how time just CREEPS by inside that pathetic offshore island. the days are so long that i got pretty sure that there was some kinda chrono device which is responsible for the retardation of temporal flow on the island. oh, and the smartest thing the government can do is to censor everthing. so yes, i'm literally not allowed to talk about the fucked up happenings in that god forsaken island unless i want to get screwed by the fucking SAF. all i can say is... i underestimated how fucked up army can get.

ok enough of that. i'm out now... and i was let out a day earlier because i was sick. i've been coughing for a week and now i've got a hell of a sorethroat and i had a fever yesterday too. it's so bad, it hurts to just drink water... or just to talk. but whatever.. i'm sure i'll get well some day. but in the meantime, i'll need to make full use of my civilian time! yes!

after resting for the entire day yesterday, i decided that i should go out for dinner with my BESTIES who i have no seen in a long long long while. so i did.. and i had a great time too... though it was weird walking around with my bald head nowadays... but whatever... it feels good to be out and free again... i think this is the first time i'm actaully GLAD to go back to singapore... normally i would be glad if i was at the boarding gate in changi airport knowing that i'll be going to a place far away from this STUPID PATHETIC ANNOYING SCREWED UP PLACE aka shithole. but of course, the happiness of going back from camp will never match that of leaving this place.

the most important thing i wanted to talk about is... the happiest thing about coming back.... is coming home to all the things i hold closest to my heart. my family....... my best friends..... my computer... yes. you read right, my computer. i can honestly say that my computer is the most precious tool in my life right now. it's gives me instant access to everything... keeps me connected with the rest of the world... news.... entertainment... and as an unparalleled form of communication. just coming home and watching my computer power up... seeing lights flashing... alerts popping up.... one alert in particular...... my jaw dropped when i saw the thing on screen... and when i finally picked my jaw back up from the floor... i just cant seem to stop smiling.... i was.... so..... esctatic. i dunno how to describe it with any other words. but.... yeah...

well, now i gotta go in about 10 minutes which sucks to HELL...... wait.. i AM going back to hell. sighhhs.......

Regardless of the inevitable, at least I had a very enjoyable Valentine's Day... That is something nothing and no one can change. :)

-my life would suck without you.