my life is so terribly boring these days. it's almost routine-like. every morning i wake up before the sun does... wash up... and then i go into the kitchen and make myself a peanut butter sandwich... and i'll wash the knife as i gobbled my lousy breakfast up... then i'll walk back into my room... and change... followed by some vanity stuff... and then i'll fill up my water bottle... and finally leave the house and go to camp where i stone most of the time. and then i come back... and bathe.. and eat dinner.. play computer.. and sleep. and then that cycle repeats itself.

it's so completely brainless that it feels like my life just flat-lined. -------------------------------------------------------- and of course, the wonderful weather these few days is doing absolutely nothing to help. what on earth is with the completely humid and HOT climate these few days? i swear i just need to sit down in the open... even in a SHADED area... and i'll get sticky and sweaty. what the hell!? along with the heat comes a few things. annoyance, frustration, stagnation, lethargy and..... erm... something else which i find inappropriate to post up here. so here i am complaining about how meaningless life in the bloody army is.

and to top it allllll off, like the cherry on top of a melted bowl of freaking ice cream, i am UNEMPLOYED! sure, some retards may consider army a job. but we ALL know the truth. it's a freaking "mandatory obligation" to this god damned freaking FURNACE of a nation. as such, the pay is LESS than what is required to be SUBSISTENT. sighs.... even the agencies cant find me a student to teach. that is just so so so terribly pathetic. stupid sexists. all those freaking educated females should just shut the fuck up about feminism cuz they already enjoy equality AND advantages over males. there's freaking discrimination against MALES too so stop bitching, suck it up and get a fucking move on with ur life.

wow that was... so politically wrong i cant believe i just typed that out! la la la i'm so gonna get a whole lot of hate directed at me. or not since no one really reads this freaking blog anyways - which is.... a good thing. anyways, to finish this post off which i created just because i was SO BORED...... i'll announce that i'm finally over that thing. no more expectations, no more desire for something more than what it already is. i've accepted that particular fact... that the status quo remains unchanged. even though i may still be slightly unhappy about that. but it's ok. i have chosen to suck it up and swallow this dark chocolate truffle that i shoved into my mouth.

besides... what's the point to mulling over it. when u already hold an even more delectable chocolate treat between ur fingers?

- so i'll do it all over again.