the weather has been slightly weird lately... lots of sudden heavy showers which again caused the temperature to fluctuate up and down. i dont know whether it's a blessing or a curse to be sensitive to weather changes. cuz lately i've been feeling my windpipe constricting in the evenings... like as if i'm gonna have an asthma attack. i hope it doesnt escalate to the stage where i start wheezing... followed by a full blown attack. (or maybe i do... what a way to curse myself...). i guess i literally "can't forget to breathe slow"... hahaha... i think it's obvious that that song has been growing on me lately.

work in the government has been as mundane and unfulfilling as always. work which earns REAL money.. on the other hand... it's a much more interesting challenge. it's amazing how incredibly proficient little kids are at being complete cute little bundles of patience-drainers. but if i had to choose between one "job" to the other, i'll definitely pick the patience-drainers anytime, anyday. not only because it's more stimulating, it actually PAYS. which allows me to be a little more generous to myself... HAHAHA. key word being MYSELF. lol what a selfish brat. :P whatever... it's a dog eat dog world people. face it.

recently, there has been a certain issue in my life which is threatening to make me either hyperventilate, or die from asphyxiation due to an asthma attack. it's been a rather white-hot topic to some people. and basically i just feel that it's just gonna piss us ALL off and we'll all give up and not give a flying fart in space about this particular problem anymore. watch it collapse on itself and self-destruct. oh wells. i guess i have enough drama in my life without fringe issues to worry about. yes... oh how important it is to be REALISTIC in life........

i found somethings rather surprising lately... i most certainly have not expected anything given the circumstances in which i came to know of this... but it's actually been rather interesting dealing with it...... of course..... this is not to say that it trumps 'miles away' as xian jun has so subtlely put it... that is an entirely different and way more sophisticated, not to mention complicated, thing altogether. but still... it's been... kinda fun. lol. speaking of which, no matter what my completely rational part of my mind says about the slimness of the chances and how ridiculous it is..... it just somehow makes sense to me.

- knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring.