this weekend has definitely been anything but uneventful. let's just say that i did not let this long weekend go to waste. after my detox-ing period of 3 weeks, i finally went on my once a month madness. no more such things for me alllllll the way till june. yes. i am very certain that i'll be tempted by a lot of things. but i shall try my very best to abstain and not give in. i think that the money thing really helps because seriously, i cant afford that lifestyle. even with my tutoring job now.

i have to say that it was a surprisingly exciting experience this time round. i was expecting a MUCH MUCH milder.... erm.... PG-13 type thing. but it's anything but that. i guess it's just my luck. this kinda things RARELY happen. like. REALLY REALLY rarely. usually it actually borders on annoying. and i have good reason to believe that it is annoying 95% of the time. which is why it's such a pointless thing to do if u're not gonna hang out with a whole bunch of FRIENDS. i guess i just dont have faith in the people. and i think that's a good thing.

even so, that didnt stop the events from happening under the strobe lights. the SUPER HOT music is one thing. all the great hit remixes.... amazing... but being so intoxicated definitely played a major role. alcohol is such a dangerous liquid. it's flammable... it's antiseptic. it's toxic. and it does A LOT to drive a person completely out of character. i guess that's why people always use it as a form of escapism. to unleash a side of themselves which they will never show under normal circumstances. it's also very super expensive. haha. in a nutshell, it's BAD. i should really stop this. and i will! craziness is only tolerated once a month. regardless of whether the experience that follows is super fun or SEVERELY disappointing. though it's usually more of the latter. that's great i guess. otherwise u'll get sucked into that horrid vice.

hahaha. the strange thing was, i actually remembered most of what happened. i cant remember the details.. like what i saw... but i remembered what i did. which is lucky.... cuz it means i wasnt totally wasted. though i wouldnt say what i did was commendable. dear xian jun was kind enough to remind me what a total.... bitch (ok FINE he used a grosser word but i shall pretend that he said bitch) i was.

i guess all i can say is... so much for my "resolution" that i told fabian at his place before we left...

- i got so brave drink in hand, lost my discretion.