i have no idea why but i felt super lethargic the whole freaking day even though i fell asleep rather early (and against my will). i was kinda nervous about meeting the MO today but that was a TOTAL waste of my time since that pissy bitch decided that there is no time for everyone. as a result, the people who wanted to see him in my wing cant and we have to find some other time to go. well, i'm going to show up in the medical centre tomorrow. see what the SHIT he has to say about my course. acne asthma and knee problem. i pray the cumulative effect of those is to revocationalise me... as a CLERK. not a fucking storeman. i'll die from the dust.

but honestly, i think that i'm suffering withdrawal symptoms from my desk job. and this is when i'm still in the office helping out. what the hell will happen to me if i dont get out and have to join the course proper next week?! i think i'll go mad. sigh.

that said, it's been a few days since i typed the above 2 paragraphs. for some strange reason i've been falling asleep against my will even since i found out that i had to go back to course. and btw, i went to see the pissy MO. he's a piece of shit. LONG story there which i'm not interested in thinking about right now. basically, he was being a slut as usual and i have NO idea what is going on right now. anyways, i was saying... sleeping problems. i dunno why... i think it has something to do with the fact that these days i'm just getting upset about the course all the time and of course... pissed off with the MO and the way this disgusting organisation is run. maybe i use up too much energy being upset. hmmm.. that does not sound healthy at all. oh wells, looks like i just have to forget it and we'll see what happens. urgh. this shitty job is so detrimental to my health.

speaking of jobs... my student is back from thailand! yay! i am actually kinda looking forward to teaching him again after such a long time. lol... of course... earning money doesnt suck TOO bad... hahahahahahahhaahaha. erm.... hope he's fine and doesnt have any funny illnesses..... but i'm sure he'll be ok. :)

i have no idea why i'm so hyper last night and right now. lol. that's a complete lie. i know EXACTLY why. haha... i'm just glad that i only got those things after such a long time... the wait was a bitch and i was getting pissed about it so many times i cant remember how many. BUT... i'm glad now... cuz like i said, my judgement would have been seriously impaired if i got them sooner. (though to be terribly brutally honest... it's really not THAT... how should i put it... erm... up-to-my-usual-standard) at least now i know.... those feelings aren't superficial......

- "you're adorable inside out".