today must have been the worst monday in my entire 18 years of life. the absolute, absolute worst. even the mondays when i had to take A levels is a thousand times better than this. because i would have believed that i studied for it and my mom will wake me up in time. not this time though. everything goes to the cesspool when you're in the army.

firstly, i realised that i have forgotten probably about 80% of my A level knowledge, especially in chemistry because i was reading SATs and i couldnt do the diagnostic test in the beginning of the damned book. all i remember are the things that i learnt when i was in IP, not JC. Details not included in the remaining 20% i do know.

secondly, just guess what time i woke up today? take a nice little guess. let me give you 4 choices. A) 5.05am B) 5.30am C) 6.30am or D) 7.30am. if you chose the last answer, you are damn right. because for some GOD FORSAKEN reason, i decided to turn off all THREE ALARM CLOCKS set at 5.05am and sleep ALL THE WAY until 7.30am when the office called me to ask me where i am. "at home." what kinda SHIT ass answer is that. and so i had to applied for a HALF day leave out of my remaining... oh i dunno.. ONE day leave which accounts for 50% of my remaining leave and i still had to go to camp by taking the 1230 ferry. URGH! i am so freaking upset. pointless, pointless pointless. one, why must my camp be on some GOD FORSAKEN ISLAND where u have to take a SCHEDULED FERRY across? there are only TWO DAMNED ferries i can take in the morning if i want to be on time. and that means taking the FIRST bus EVERY morning. at least if it was mainland i could've taken the second or third or even the FOURTH. and two, WHY THE HELL do they have to make the day start SO DAMN FUCKING EARLY. it MAKES NO SENSE. we dont even DO MUCH. the WHOLE THING IS JUST POINTLESS AND A TOTAL WASTE OF TIME, RESOURCES AND ENERGY.

let me put the blame on something like humans tend to do.... IT'S THE FUCKING ARMY'S FAULT. ALL OF THIS... THE BRAIN DRAIN AND THE LATENESS IS ALL THE FUCKING SHITFART MOTHEREFFING M I N D E F/S A F ' s FAULT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and OBVIOUSLY what GETS me MORE is the fact that i would have been punished if i was late.. some LAME ASS TOTALLY REDUNDANT RIDICULOUS PUNISHMENT.. and MORE IMPORTANTLY..... IT'S THE FUCKING DUMBING DOWN ON MY BRAIN. I CAN LITERALLY FEEL IQ POINTS DRIPPING OUT OF MY BRAIN WITH EVERY PASSING MOMENT I'M IN THE SCREWED UP, USELESS... INEFFICIENT SHITASS ORGANISATION.

- fuck you very very much.